(This page used to be 2 short paragraphs, but I have expanded it to explain myself to the various people I come into contact with.)
Co-written and edited by kassyf (Fiverr).
This blog is the result of a suggestion by my uncle, who has been supportive through these challenging times even when others have not. People that I have known all or most of my life do not understand and some have cut ties. Photography is very therapeutic for me and has been a great way to reconnect with people.
I am currently using a Cannon Powershot camera, though it’s a small point-and-shoot camera and some people at a photography meet up I used to attend laughed about it. 🙂 Now that smartphones can pretty much replace a camera, my more recent pictures from this year are taken with an iPhone SE that came free with a plan from Best Buy.
I am Toronto born and raised, at the tail-end of the 60s. It was a much different time. I now have a passion for preserving the beautiful and relatively balanced Canada, I once knew and loved.
After university I lived abroad for 5 years and travelled to 12 countries during that time. The intensity of this travel experience left me disoriented. In my late 20s I chose to leave my job at an airline to go “save the world” by pursuing Environmental Studies. After much thought about world problems (social, environmental, economic), I came to the conclusion that fostering more co-operatives in Canada and around the world would be ideal. I feel co-ops create community, promote true democracy, encourage environmental stewardship, and are the perfect counterbalance to unchecked capitalism; they would help solve so many of the worlds problems. You can learn more about co-ops here: http://www.learningcentre.coop/content/what-co-operative
Unfortunately, increasing mental health issues left me caring little about the world around me. A diagnosis in my 30s changed everything. I struggle with CPTSD (complex post traumatic stress disorder), social anxiety, and BPD (borderline personality disorder). The above issues (which are my and partly CAMH’s diagnoses), along with suspected schizophrenia (my current psychiatrist’s diagnosis, which I completely reject and disagree with) has lead to me losing my right to make my own medical decisions.
What is BPD?
Borderline personality disorder
Impulsive and risky behavior, such as having unsafe sex, gambling or binge eating
Unstable or fragile self-image
Unstable and intense relationships
Up and down moods, often as a reaction to interpersonal stress
Affects job performance and one’s ability to “fit in” with coworkers
Suicidal behavior or threats of self-injury
Intense fear of being alone or abandoned
Ongoing feelings of emptiness
Frequent, intense displays of anger
Stress-related hypersensitivity/seeming paranoia that comes and goes